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hello

2005-04-30T06:11:00.000-07:00

exams sooon le... aiyo. sian lo..

tis entry ish 4 pple hu keeps sayin bad things behind me punk..

shut up, thank u

the measure of a man is in his magnitude of his ability to forgive n handle situations... can u beat me?

shut up.. just shut up :)

4 dose hu hv things to say, kindly say in in my face n nt behind pple.... tt the makin of a weakling... u r worthless if u do tt...

:)

todae did some physics...

go macdonal got see pple whu got so shocked at seeing me haha....

dixon stop calling me...

zachary... sometyms u must push at something 4 something to happen. sitting n doin nth wun help punk.

hey ncc pples, me woon chose the pple going to OBS le... will tell u partcs wen de tym ish rite eh.. if the 2 chosen choose to misbehave, den too bad. i gona strike ya name of dudes.

exams must mug.. tryin da!....

new skin... cow ish good....
born le, make milk... die le, make burger... good job to all cows... a salute u!
i wun wan tt kinda life lo... haha live n die for pple hu dun appreciate...

had english paper1-was okay. but letter minus >2 marks le, 4 wrong format! ARGH!

ah.... the end os this exam suffering ish like aeons away lo....

maybe this catastrophic event called test ish something all hv to go tru lo.

tts all. out!

mondae again....

2005-04-25T01:53:00.000-07:00

ah! haha... yong boon!... 1stly he unziped me wen i n him n sam n phebe n jiayi was at the busstop, luckily no one (except u) saw ani thing... ah!!! public sehz! sehz!... ah den go jp still no happie, smack my head! ah! haha... lol... somedae will revenge de. wait n see punk! lo

ah at 154 there, jeremy lau said he noes my secret! shi* sehz.. nvm i dun think he wuld ani how spread aniwae....

ah todae got bio test (which turned in to exercise) and CME test which has some difficult questions sehz, dose kind u got 4 choices, but den got 2 lyk almost the same one.. tt type.... ah.... den in maths class slept, cant take it animore! haha! ah!!! tiredness sure sux....

saw the scho0l's maths department board, wa my class got Jeremy Lam de.... jeremy lam wai kit?!!?!? haha... den saw some names i noe de. got izzat shiehyiin (2 tyms) zikai yaoye yanhong.... ah all top scorers for maths seh ahah i cant get tt lo.!!! den jian hong go shit... lol... den pple see things haha.. nice toilet without a lock punk. lol... :).... haha

now a daes got the "white white" guy story (rite adi).. but nt yet see him lea... nvm tmr haha

ah odae run 2.4, the school hor, the paper rite thursdae den changed to mon(pe) nva tell us de lo. sehz... wa ... nvm la, happie wif result can le :).. tmr 5 stations! i need luck in sit n reach sehz.. can die lo!!!! lol...

ah thanks yvonne 4 the CD listening to it now.. can guess tt u hv limited english songs in ya com...haha mostly kelly clarkson sehz haha. but thanks. will gif u the shit de haha...

jus now at canteen walked infront of her. haha..hah sehz she no where to run, den smiled hha.. lol..

todae happie dae.... coz well got things done (spec course briefing de).... haha hey partCs, tmr go briefing ryte, behave well hor.. cannot afford to hv bad image sent forth eh... i dun think anione but zemin reads my blog aniwae.. good luck punks..... make me proud... i wanna be proud of u pple eh partCs.... IMPRESS ME! ~-.-~ lol...

ah!... later wanna sleep lo.... i sleep king!!!

smile... for i hv faith in my guys. :)

ah no tittle to write!

2005-04-23T01:32:00.000-07:00

ah! haha. 2dae speech dae... marching in lyk shi* lyk tt, no one's fault directly but den very hard to catch up wen base beat not consistance... nvm nx yer my part Cs will do good de

den after the speech dae rite, had training session wit my sec 3 cadets. den taught dem Jandikan dua/tiga Barisan and also Dari Kanan/kiri Kanan/kiri Belok.. man dey lyk almost perfect Belok(ing) le...den Jandikan very nice le! lol... ah now on no tym 4 drilLs le, mus move on to Mutual preparations le.. ah! no tym! AH!!!! ah!!!!

hmmm aft drill session rite, some sergeants n some partCs went out togetha (in uniform) - adi jack ruthiran yongcheng weisheng wayne chung siang zhiguang yuehao(who ish extremely unlucky) zuhuai zemin dixon zachary daniel junda AND Tze Zhu *(was my batch's staff sergeant wen me batch was in sec1) lol. n of coz got me lo... went 4 lunch at KFC den walked walked... went to toys r'us and kiddy palace... lol. young at heart.it ish sure fun to interact with younger generations coz it makes me feel young. part c rmb to read up specs book hor.... lo...

lol den saw two ncc's LCPs who are smaller ranking den all those i mentioned above. lol. den we walked behind dem, guess was, Weisheng said loudly "hey Staff chinhua Staff zhiguang!" lol.. showing off in action!

hmm tts all 4 tedae.... ahah

smile... coz well. we showed off todae!

hair....

2005-04-21T03:23:00.000-07:00

haha todae had a hair cut, i luk different now.. tmr go school sure got pple tok tok lol.

jus now cut hair, aft tt walk walk at jp jss pple stare stare!!!1 ahahahahah!!! lol

haha todae had chinese test. die

jus now took back english paper good!. i won eugene ang! man engene ANG lea!!!! ah!!! joy!

ahah tmr got speech day LAST pract, part Cs tmr 230! petee water bottle WRITING MATERIAL. impt tm,r got specs course pre-briefing briefing.. u pplw will udnerstand tmr lol.

tt all todae..

smile, for chinhua's hair ish diferent le! :)

2005-04-20T05:00:00.000-07:00

hello.
4 pple whu are wondering...well nth ish happening... o told her all i felt, tts all.nth else. plz dun add salt n pepper dudes... "zhi ze zhi qin" onli the directly affected people noes the best eh... :) so, appreciate if nth else ish being said :)...

bout todae.. well scolding my part C... annoyed.. tired of shielding u pple. no more eh. rmb the 100 puch up deal!.... i reallie mean it! ai yo.

todae bad day sehz... i tot tt finally can change blog skin bout "sad guy" le. well cannot! sehz.. todae bad enof... den come online worst. sehz!!!

tts all., tryin harda smile!

2005-04-19T02:17:00.000-07:00

helo... todae bio test sehz. i go memborise the answers for some qns. ALL nva come out... wah unlucky cant go further!
well... the test okok bah... hope wun do badly L)

jus now wanted to sleep, cant get to sleep. haz.. sehz now dunno do wad.. haha tmr got speechdae pract again...but NVM, school 1/2 uniform! sehz! haha happie :D

hmm hah seh.... hmm... ah jus now seh, during english and maths, cannot tahan sehz... was lyk trying SO hard not to fall asleep... luckily got jessie n waikit also 1/2 asleep with me, so well in de end, got 50% of the total combined "awakeness" still there. so managed to survive! haha...

haha yesterdae so happie,watched a teevee program on channel8, got beautiful illusions (2100) den saw fann wong, dun reallie lyk her but, holding the same hp model as i m now, sehz happie (though i hv noted the fact tt her fone models most prob wun last 4 even 2 weeks) :(... life ish bais on the loaded haha... :)

tmr my class yangchao's birthdae... hey dun siao2, got pple think he luks like CINDI!!~~ the sing the "dian yi shou ge gei HONEY" tt one, man, if yangchao long hair?>!?!?!?!? AH!!!! horror flick (jk)... well cannot say jk lea, sord of real :P
Tmr he sure swollen with blu-blacks one. haha sure thing... imgaine 16 slaps times 41 students?! haha wa! survival of the (REALLY) fittest... lol... man u noe why will blue black, coz well ya blood stops circulating in tt region, then deoxygenized blood ish purplish red in colour (haemoglobin) tts why blu-black (though it ish reallia jus dark purple!) lo... "shpwing off" skills again, no lah, teaching the massess! dun play play hor, nx tym i become teacher den u pple see. :) lo...

NIE here i come! lol

tts all 4 todae.. haha... tedae overall rating :okay....: but got tons of emaths homework which i will choose to tackle onli later... lo.. hmm define later..

tts all.... :)

smile, 4 it reduces wrinkles~

2005-04-17T04:04:00.000-07:00

Ha. todae sundae.. haha...
jus now went 2 study n well managed to get some chapters covered (bio) but nt good. too slow. :(
somemore ate a lot sehz... den mingshit guailan jus now.... den lizheng guailan to him ahahz... u noe wad i m tokin bout... :)

hmm.. now online, later got the NKF thing, DOnate plz... haha i did.. haha 5 calls eh.... man m i an angel or wad sehz :)

ah me n sherman Ho chattin now.. hmm u noe wad. dan brown ish a well very talented writer, read his books ! but do read his nok wif a pinch of salt, coz well not everything he writes ish true (EXP da vinci code!)

so... learn frm his writing methods, not lyin skills..

ah.... yesterdae chatted wih someone... dint noe tt someone was so troubled... reallie hoped i knew earlier.. but now, take it ez n well, fly with this burden eh... proud of u... VERY proud of u Ms S.... impressed....:)

Hmm tts bout it 4 dis weekend.. haha. man. tmr school

Good luck ElddS tmr! dun come back with a COP :P lo! :)

smile...if not u might jus turn into slime! haha sehz!....

ah!

2005-04-15T20:51:00.000-07:00

hunger attack!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my bro takes 4eva to brin in food man!... hmm! ah!!

haha... jus now finish weekend homework le. now takin a long long break. man! listening to withney's i have nothing. she good voice! haha....

yesterdae nite was kool, i tok to some sec3s... found out somethings haha(online). but dun think will affect ahhaz... hmm. guess todae will be boring. tmr maybe going out study with mingshit n guys.. lo. miss macdonal's breakfast lo long tym no eat... hahz..

azmin hand got skin infection,hope u get well soon. ha ..

hmm tts bout it 4 now. if at nite i free i come again. 4 now chill n enjoy the zyphyr of saterdae breeze!

Smile... it ish never THAT hard.

HEY!

2005-04-15T05:30:00.000-07:00

ah.... todae during lesson, mr lim said my physics dropped [a lot] den nva tell me my marks! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man stressED stressED man hahaz

hmm todae had speech dae practice.. okok la.. same old thing mah. BUT WAYNE that pile of rubbish (jk) stole my job as rite marker... i curst tt u strink tonite! AHH>> go , become 135M tall.. come on..! ah! stole my job... 1st tym i can rite mark lea! hahaz. ah SEHZ!

hmmm todae... i drank a lot of water... dunno why, ha.. den izzat give me the weird weird face wen he walk pass muai. sehz. hmm... saw joanne abby n mingshit spyin on us. haha

sehz tis few daes,, think a lot.. think bout my successors... nx tym wen i step down. den think a LOT sehz. a lot.! finally finally finally.. found the ones.. bout in council n ncc... found my the one.... ncc one still not so sure...still must keep in view n take note of other choices. but the council one... i die die also want [him] to get it sehz... reallie hope tt it wuld be [him] .. haha think 4 so long one.. no more can do it betta den him le...

haha sehz... soon le... soon going to step down in both thing le/. so sad! lol... worked hard... no regrats eh. did mi best... [pad on shoulder] haah sehz buai yao bai ha!

hmm todae happie... fridae relaxx dae.

hmm pretty much tts all.... jus wanna kill wayne hahaz!

:)

smile....4 it brightens up someone's journey.

hello!

2005-04-14T00:17:00.000-07:00

todae had the last of dis week's common test, man did it felt good or wad! haha had chemistry den history..chemistry not reallie the best of all my papers but hist suld be alrite eh. hah.. sehz feelin good..
todae came home early again, hmmm.. gt sleep later den wake up study... again... haha... todae english lesson, had some sord of "debate" bout us given a situation and needin to survive tru it [aft being given persons to be].. man my grp ish the fit n strong 28 years old aust. rowing team... sure win... which we did la. had a vote, no one wanted my grp to die! VicTory ish sweet eh.

ah.... needs study bio later, den wanna think bout it... lala lala..

22nd sc, fridae plz hand up assignment 4 sec2 coords

hmmm... arent we all just made of dreams... wen we dun fight 4 the dreams n let it stay in our minds n minds onli, it will forever be a dream n not b truth. wen we are fighting 4 our future n our values, we have to stand tall even if the odds are against us... if u hv to die,,, die as a ghost who tried ya best.. haha

hmm jus thought of it

hmm nth much to sae lea.. dunno why i started blog, dun hv a lot to say... but well... mid yer soon, den olevel MT soon, den SLcamp coming le... den agm den investiture den i gone le hahaz

OH YAR<>dun wanna sae more, later pple go see see.. hahaz... that person eh... u cannot do wadevau wrote with all 42 of us, u will die of tiredness! which u do...wad did we ever do to u man!.... hu eva u r, hope u get caught soon.... may the light of truth shine! haha... 4 dose in my class with ya picture sadly taken away... well plz take another one sehz... hahaz.. the board feels empty with u pple missing. hahaz

btw, nice bag Logan n Yuanping!.... nice couple sehz! :)

chill. out

tuesdae

2005-04-12T01:44:00.000-07:00

ah todae managed to come home early again, dint wanted to use computer... cant help it! haha
man... thurs got test.. quite ready hope i do well.. sehz haha// nx week 1/2 of the whole bio textbook will be tested.. betta work eh... sehz..hmm...todae, normal... quite happpie.. coz nothing to be unhappie about mah...

hmmm council, something happened... hmm hope u hv happiness eh.... ur choice i respect, ur life u live it... so... if u r reading this, good luck in wadeva ya do.. n i reallie mean it, we may not be the closest of friends but i still wish u e best of luck... rmb us...

hmm...ah later gona sleep, den wake up do homework n study 4 test. man sec 4 le... I HAVE NO LIFE! I HAVE NO LIFE... must do well 4 olevel man! pple lookin, cant let pple down. Sehz...

dunno why, todae i feel relaxed.... nth to be stressed bout.. so.. well.... happie la....

todae chinese asap.. dint do much. so todae on a whole ish a eazy dae.

tt all 4 todae.. gona sleep le.... chill guy!

OUT

Mondae

2005-04-11T01:52:00.000-07:00

todae mondae.. now 452. todae home early so add an entry...

todae morning...stomach pain sehz... haha nvm done n over le... den todae had bio n ohysics test... guess it suld be alrite eh.. hmm...

todae...a mondae.. i later sleeping after doin my blog n den wake up near 8 to study chemistry... ah nice...got msn.7version le.. hmmm the handwriting ish fun sehz. lo..

dunnno why i started blog, alwaes nothing to tok bout de... tmr no speechdae training le...dunno why ruthi told me,

mt emaths got 15! man got V.good there.... so happie... maths lea,. haha! sehx...

soon... soon... i will be on my bed.. haha... tme impt da for someone rite S? she will know haha! haha

aniway... it ish nice to be in the serene of my house doin next to nothing.. it helps one think bout things one has 4gotten!

take a look, the world ish beautiful.. beauty ish everywhere... dere r tons of pple almost hvin no clean water n our water comes 4rm the tap, dun take things 4 granted, dun take efforts of government lightly... wen u lose it, see how u live sehz..

When there’s no one else, look inside yourselfLike your oldest friend just trust the voice withinThen you’ll find the strength that will guide your wayYou’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

nice song here:breaking the habit.

I don’t know what’s worth fighting forOr why I have to screamI don’t know why I instigateAnd say what I don’t meanI don’t know how I got this wayI know it’s not alrightSo I’m breaking the habitI’m breaking the habit tonight

READ PLZ

you see, a reflex action ish a simple action tt your body does wen it ish under a simulation such as wen ur hands touch a hot kettle u will pull back ya hand...dis kinda things are passed down by genes so everyone with their hands on hot kettle will pull back n nt glue there.... well tt a reflex. BUT
if it ish the 1st tym u hear the word ROASTED CHICKEN, u may not hv saliva secreted (btw siliva ish a reflect action), but once u taste Roasted chicken n love it, wen ever u see roasted chicken or even hears the word "roasted chicken", silava will start to build up

thus: lesson of story... dun build bad habits, it will be hard to minus it nx tym haha! got link>? hahaz

thats all folks !
see ya...

hello

2005-04-10T01:58:00.000-07:00

ah.... haha azy to do homework.. jus finish readin tru physics n bio, tmr got test ha...

ah.. now a dae... very busy due to my cca thing. keep on facin the computer doin specialist booklet 4 dem.. seems to nt place so much effort in council anymore eh... hmm feels bad...
but dun worry pple sehz.. still luv my job, still luv my 30 little bois n gals.. still luv my life... hmmm tt tym interactive dae camp.. made me realised tt my sec3s r reallie capable... preety much ready 4 most of the things tt may come deir wae... but... unity needs to be improved n teamwork must most certainly inprove eh.. u can do it darlings!

haha..ytd a lot of pple come console me sehz.. but i nt reallie down haha.. sytem up n runnin sehz

man i m stepping down soon.... reallie scared to knoe if i hv done enof both 4 sc n ncc.... steppin down... feel lost...

man 4 my pple in both sc n ncc. strive hard seh... without teamwork... a bunch of strong personnels are useless... rmb tt...

believe u can achieve! believe it with all ya soul! den u most properbly will reach ya goals!

Believe, a man's greatest gift.. onli parallel to life it self!

Smile.. even if it ish hard.. 4 it lights up pple's hearts!

cheers!

jus another entry

2005-04-09T03:08:00.000-07:00

Man, i m lyk bored outa my wits... again... ! man!

ah! nothing to do! no one to chat to...Ah.... help mi...

dun feel lyk doing homework... fells lonely coz alone at home, crap man! wadeva

hp also no one msg me.. wa reallie bored sehz..... reallie!!!

hmm waiting 4 dinner now... hmm wonder wen wuld it come. mus wait 4 my parents to wake up 1st.. den see go where.... SIAN !

2005-04-09T01:19:00.000-07:00

now online ehz. helping huimin do her blog though i cant help plenty....

nice skin eh... found it by chance.. got one kelly clarkson one, but pink in colour sehz! dumb2 to have it... hahaz

HAVE to do homework... but lazy lea.. reallie lazy to lea.... no motivation. smmore mon got physic test....dun lyk physic animore. coz well.. bad teaching methods.... jhaaz

hmm tt all 4 now..
btw i keep changing blog sehx. keep 4getting old webbie's password. dis tym wun 4get le :) hahaz

hmm...

2005-04-08T19:10:00.000-07:00

10.10 now.. bored out of my wits...

no bods online.. no will to study. cant be bordered..

it ish tough to be a joker... u get tired very easily... believe me...

it ish tough...being a role model every moment... have to be... tired.. hate school becoz of the UG camp thing

stupid ... stupid.... dun lyk my batch of sec4 leaders rite?... we won let it off easy. a letter to the news n u r dead eh....but wun do tt i guess. still hv a chance of getting it settled, but b4 all, the teachers need to treat us lyk humanS! with thinking powers as well as deirs.. stop dictating us! we had enof.. GROW UP GROWN UPS!

goin no where later...no motivation to move. reallie lukin down on sch now, coz of the way they r treatin uniform grp. so wen bball hv TRG dey can use ALL the bball courts, the onli way for UGs to use the bbal court ish IF the WHOLE bunch of UG ush around.. oh tts lyk SO FAIR RITE? i dun lyk sch animore... BIAS>grow up grown ups!

ending here.... getting bored of life. gona shut life off 4 a while. going to the world of peach, goin to zen lifestyle... meditating... tt liberates us....

i hope so

smile,even if it ish hard to

zen?

2005-04-08T18:56:00.000-07:00

wads zen? zen ish the art of doing things simple b getting it done....

man....

ao u ever felt lyk u are standing in de middle of the ocean. u cant advance, u cant back up... u r pushed back n forth by words frm others n by rules u jus hv to follow?.. wads freedom? lost it?

dese few daes,nothings going right... ooke dun understand... i have things to take care of... both sides... i cannot just well let things be... i cant devote fully on either one of dem. i've studies rmb?.... i m onli a man... onli a normal human... how fast do u want me to fall...

i want to be happy on something tts real.... i m trying to pick up n hold together pieces of me.. neva thought i wuld feel dis way? why? ish is becoz i m different? ish it becoz i m cursed?

i m onli a man, onli a normal human... i can onli stretch so far... i can onli be this high.... wad else

i m onli a man...onli a normal human.how much do i need to give up? weeks n weeks to do tt stupid booklet.... 4 a bunch of pple whu cant care less..... no one cares....no one at all... why? i m tired eh... weeks n weeks.... now pple dun even come 4 trg... tired. no one's helping... wanna let it all slip pass me. but cant do tt... coz i m tied down... by plenty of things

days r passsing... my guys r getting more n more rude.. wads wrong. m i too good.. i dun wanna scold... do i need to? why m i letting myself being treated lyk rubbish, dun reallie care animore.... but cant dun care. it ish a life i chose...

lies.... world filled with lies.... i m onli a man... a normal human. how ast do i hv to fall..... 4 how long? - end it . plz.